Saturday, September 30, 2006
Typhoon Milenyo left a trail of destruction leaving hundreds of dead people lying on the streets, thousands of poeple homeless and millions including me who doesnt have electricity and water at home. According to the news, this was the strongest typhoon after 11 years. And i can say that it is. Remember typhoon Rosing?
If i remember it right, that happened during the wake of my dad at Loyola Guadalupe. When all of Metro Manila doesn't have electricty and we don't have anything to offer to our guest. Also because of the situation we have to extend our stay there and postpone my dad's burial.
I hate it! This was the first time in my entire life that from our unit, i have to go up and down to the basement with an empty bucket just to get water for me to at least have a decent bath.
Its been 3 days of living in the dark, feeling sticky and sleeping with mosquitos; i wouldn't ask myself if i'll have dengue on of these days.
So right now im stuck here in the office all by myself. Surfing the net and trying to entertain myself so that boredom will not make my short life even shorter. Hope someone will come here.
3:37 PM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Oo
Up Dharma Down'Di mo lang alam
Naiiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
'Di mo lang alam
Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon
At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan
Luhaan, sugatan, 'di mapakinabangan
Sana nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Sana'y nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam
Kay tagal na panahon
Ako'y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa'yo
Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
'Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
Kung ako'y nagkasala patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal
'Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s’ya na lang
Sana'y ako naman
'Di mo lang alam
Ika'y minamasdan
Sana'y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
'Di mo lang alam
Kahit tayo'y magkaibigan lang
Napapaligaya lang sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Ako'y nandito lang
Hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman
Kung ikaw at ako
Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito
Ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako'y masasaktan ng ganito
Sana'y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
'Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s'ya na lang
Sana'y ako naman
Isang kindat man lang
'Di mo lang alam
O, ika'y minamasdan
Sana iyo’y mamalayang di mo lang pala alam
Oooooooo
Malas mo
Ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
4:33 AM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
In The Deep
Bird York
Thought you had
all the answers
to rest your heart upon.
But something happens,
don't see it coming, now
you can't stop yourself.
Now you're out there swimming...
In the deep.
In the deep.
Life keeps tumbling your heart in circles
till you... Let go.
Till you shed your pride, and you climb to heaven,
and you throw yourself off.
Now you're out there spinning...
In the deep.
In the deep.
In the deep.
In the deep.
And now you're out there spinning...
And now you're out there spinning...
In the deep.
In the deep.
In the deep.
And the silence,
or your secrets, well
raise a worry hand.
Well, you can pin yourself back together,
to who you thought you were.
Now you're out there livin'...
In the deep.
In the deep.
In the deep.
In the deep...
Now you're out there spinning...
Now you're out there swimming...
Now you're out there spinning...
In the deep.
In the deep.
In the deep.
In the deep...
3:23 PM
Right now, I spend my time all alone. I am wondering what it is like to be happy once more. Every smile and laughter you make matches a sigh. Your conversations are like words which are, to me, just remnants of a wonderful past we both shared.
My sadness does not mean that I am not happy for you. I truly am.
Let me grieve over it for a while and maybe I could smile with you once more. But for now, allow me to be sad. I just hope that this pain won't turn into hate. Which i think is so impossible because hating you is the least thing that I would want to happen.
This is a sad night.
StarlightMuseFar away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to reignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
But I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
I just wanted to hold.
12:32 AM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Over my Head (Cable Car)
The FrayI never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over...
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
2:11 PM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
A friend just texted this quote a while ago and i can say that this sums up the events ive been to this couple of weeks.
"There was that law of life. So cruel yet so just. That one must grow or else pay more for remaining the same."
i like "Dead End" signs. I think they're kind. they at least have the decency to let you know you're going nowhere.
9:21 PM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
For the first time in my professional career it is only now that i had this feeling of relief. A piece of mind that i havent felt for the last 7 months. I missed it so much. Now i could do the all things i have always wanted to accomplish a long time ago. Such as my writing my thesis, watching movies and hanging out with my campus friends.
Now i could dedicate my time and passion on stuffs that i really want and makes me happy.
It has been a month ago since ive predicted that this would happen. Maybe were all just waiting for this event to happen. I think that i have proven myself already.
I don't see it as a defeat but instead as a challenge for improvement.
You cant call it a failure coz i know to myself that i have succeded.
We cant say that i have lost the battle for i have gained lessons.
It is not yet over but i like to think of it as a start of something new.
I'm thankful
I'm free
1:49 AM
