Thursday, August 31, 2006
I heard a gunfire... rushing through my system... i couldnt see... i bit my lip... i could feel the music... i danced all night... took my clothes off... lit a stiff cig... and sparked something else... i woke up in jail... sadness... tears running down my face... i was sooo doped up... i killed someone... shit... harshness kills.
"criticize the good and laugh at the bad "
by edmunton birlin"
1:45 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
Its monday na and its 3 am in the morning. Im still here in the office writing a copy and capuring materials needed for a plug to be edited on tom. I'm not surprised if many we're spending the night here in the office like me, rushing things and advancing stuffs.
I just want to go home na at matulog sa kama ko. Dahil mamaya andito na naman ako ng maaga.
Hay...
Bad news, bad day, bad weekend.
This life sucks!
3:00 AM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
I just knew something from a friend and warned me on complications that i will be facing next week. Should i prepare? I know that people are talking about me and they kinda hate me to bits. Well what can i do if thats what you think. I thought this issue would be over since i've already been silent pero it was just about to start pala. As much as i try to forget about things and pretend that nothing happend, still negetive things still are taking place.
4:49 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
Maria and Michael of Roswell
COLLIDE
Howie Day
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow findYou and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
11:52 AM
Friday, August 18, 2006
I guess that is it. Two things have ended today. The first one ended with a slap in the face, the other with a heavy heart.
As I watched both of you, I realized that some things are not the same anymore. I have to accept that some things cannot just be undone. I have been deliberately trying to move on and hold on at the same time. I am just waiting for the time when I would just reach my limit shatter out of existence.
Things will get better, I promise.
Last Wednesday, I prayed long and hard and there you were. You were able to help me out in many things: in what I have been going through and in finding myself once more. You made me realize that bit by bit, I could regain myself and start to be happy once more.
There are times that I slide several notches back, but you were always there (i guess, sana naman).
In such a short time, I have found a good friend in you. Nobody knows where the future will bring us. You have become a part of my life in a way. Thank you for understanding that wounds do not heal that fast.
Many thanks to you.
What we do with our anger, feelings of hatred, and frustrations is subject to our will. We can choose how we will respond to stress or to the behavior of others.
9:13 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
My apprehension on last nights entry was again reaffirmed.
And thats the only thing that im going to say.
Reality has finally slapped me.
I'm glad
9:05 PM
Right now i'm all alone here in the office, ewan ko bigla na lang ako iniwan ng mga hinayupak. Pagkalingon ko wala na pala akong kasama dito sa room. Hay, bigla tuloy akong dinalaw ng lungkot. Right i just don't know what to feel. I don't know if i'm going to be happy because im with someone special for dinner kahit na sa caf kanina or going to be sad because i've got this strong intuition na i don't have the guts to type it in this blog. Totoo ba o hindi? Ewan? Siguro...Bahala na...kung yun na nga, yun na nga...
God! What is wrong with me, i just can't get over! Even if there's someone new i still can't forget about the past. It is only now that i've come into my senses na i'm not fit to commit because i still have excess bagage. I think it is not fair for them or even to myself na ganito ako. Somethings wrong with me talaga and i really have to change it asap!
HALF CRAZY
Freestyle
know I havent slept a week at all
since you've been gone
and my eyes are kinda tired
from crying all night long
know i've never been too good at cooking
just for one
it's so lonely here without you baby
come back home
coz i'm half crazy
feelin' sorry for myself
half crazy
worried you'd find someone else to love
know life hasn't been much fun at all
since you've been gone
and my eyes being to feel
each time I hear a song
i spent every minute asking myself
what went wrong
can't we try to talk it over baby
come back home
coz I'm half crazy
i'm feelin' sorry for myself
half crazy
worried you'd find someone else to love
but baby there is no one else
half crazy
for everything you saying
half crazy
no one else could love you like i do
so i'm half crazy
feelin' sorry for myself
half crazy
i'm worried you'd find someone else to love
but baby there is no one else
half crazy
for everything you saying
half crazy
no one else could love you
and no one else could ever be
half crazy
feeling sorry for myself
and I'm worried you'll find someone else
half crazy
feeling sorry for myself to love baby
1:50 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Just caught up with my reading and realized something very common pero ngayon lang ako napaisip ng todo.
Is there still more to say?
When almost everything has ben written about love?
Where does hapiness come from?
Does it come from having a relationship? Or just plain having fun?
2:24 PM
After watching Pinoy Dream Academy this song just caught my attention.
Hey Look At The Sun
Sitti
All of my life there were things I wanted to do
But they all changed the moment I set my eyes on you
The magnetism that attracted me to you
There's something inside I just can't explain
But now I know what I must do
[chorus]
Hey look at the sun it's finally shining on my life
It's shining on my life
And it's all because of you
It's finally shining on my life
For me and for you
All of my life I've wandered 'round time and again
But I never thought that all my searchin' would come to an end
And then you came along
And my world of love began
So now I'm gonna change my ways
You're all I want
You're all I need
12:09 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Is this a sign? Ganito na ba talaga ang scenario ngayon? :)
| Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 79% |
Your job is a total bummer, and probably the worst job you've ever had.
Your co-workers stink. Your boss is a jerk. And your company is probably in trouble.
Think about finding a new job quickly, even if it's just a not-so-great transition job.
You've got to get out of there as quickly as you can! |
6:38 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
Your Heart Is An Empty Room Death Cab For A CutieBurn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue
Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago
And all you see
Is where else you could be
When you're at home
Out on the street
Are so many possibilities
To not be alone
The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear
And you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
'Cause you knew you were finally free
'Cause all you see is where else you could be when you're at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
And all you see is where else you could be
When you're at home
There on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
11:06 AM
