milkylicious^^

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Lately, Mike and I were having problems on time management and prioritization. It’s been already a week since we saw each other, 3 days since we talked on the phone and 2 days since he last texted me. No, I'm angry it's just that I’m beginning to worry on what might happen to him. He's not answering my messages and calls, I hate it! I can't concentrate on my work and I'm just so fucking paranoid every time my cellphone rings hoping that it was him.

The same scenario already happened last week. Last Tuesday, we were supposed to go out on a date. At 3 P.M., I asked him if he could make it, he confirmed. Then, I texted him again at 6 P.M. if ever there would be some change of plans, he didn't replied. I began calling him but his phone was off. This series of inquiry continued until 3 A.M. In the morning, as i was packing my stuff and getting ready for Tagaytay, I received a text from him saying that he was really busy last night. He apologized that couldn’t answer my calls for he was in a meeting. I answered that it was ok and I'm just worried. Then, he confessed that he was having a hard time balancing our relationship and his work. I began to cry. I asked him if he was giving up…if we were breaking-up, he simply told me that he wanted me to stay.

Today, I’m experiencing the same dilemma. Ang hirap lang! All I need is just one text from him, kontento nako dun. I don’t care kung tuloy kami later o hindi, I just want to know if he’s ok.

Right now, questions suddenly bopped in to my mind. Am I a high maintenance boyfriend? Do I expect and demand too much from him? Karma ko na siguro ‘to.

Ngayon, sigurado nako mahal ko na siya dahil hindi ako mababaliw ng ganito kung hindi ko siya mahal. Mukhang nagbago yata ang ihip ng hangin. I wanted him to stay.

Sana maayos ko pa ‘to...

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