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Saturday, January 05, 2008

As everybody was still having a New Year hangover, I was just surprised to find out from my HR that my contract wasn’t renewed by boss. Wala na pala akong babalikan sa itaas ngayong 2008, how’s that for a new year! Well, being in the program monitoring for 11 months, I can say that I already had an idea that this would happen, maybe still because of the issue that sparked before, about 2 months ago.

I remembered what he did on my birthday celebration/ weekly meeting in the office when he discussed what happened in front of the whole department with due respect to that big birthday cake of mine. Since I knew that I was wrong, I quickly apologized and kept in mind that because of that, things would be the same anymore. But in all fairness, in reality, it was really meant to happen it’s just that I’m the person who got involved on it. All along I thought that the issue has been settled and we would just charge it to experience, neither do I know that he still have more in mind.

Up to now, I still don’t know his grounds for he would not talk to me. All I can do was to think assumptions. That’s so immature, unprofessional and undiplomatic. I understand the fact that no one’s indispensable in the company more so that maybe we have already been attached to each other and it’s hard for him to let go and involved himself in the middle of such emotional event, nevertheless it was his job as a boss or else di ko malalaman ang mga kailangan kong baguhin at iimprove. I know to myself that I deserve an explanation. Ayoko naman na ako ang lalapit sa kanya dahil I have nothing to say in he first place, furthermore it would just make me look helpless gayung hindi naman.

Kung trabaho at trabaho lang, I’m already burned-out and if not for the people and the payroll matagal na akong nagresign. It was a dead end job full of intellectual masturbation, desperately trying to analyze the subjective TV viewing with the help from the barely credible TV ratings. Walang growth and it was just easy money. Sadyang naunahan nya lang ako this time.

Well I guess I have to start my new year with a completely new life, job and attitude. Everything seemed to fall in to place dahil swak na swak ang pagpasok ko sa Velvet as a copywriter/ producer. Though the job was more demanding I can say that I’ve been given a chance here to grow and do what I really love most. Pero syempre, di pa rin maiiwasan na mamiss at malungkot dahil sa mga officemates ko sa 15^th floor. Medyo awkward na rin sakin and buong vicinity. Kahit sabihin pa saking its ok to drop by there because more than officemates, we were also friends, iba pa rin when you think na your’re no longer part of it anymore. (gosh naiiyak lang ako)

To my officemates, just remember that if you need something, im just a text away. Di naman ganun kalayo ang 15^th floor as 10^th floor kung nasan ako ngayon dahil may elevator naman. Hope nothing would change, yosi pa rin sa 13^th, inuman sa Janero at videoke Cosala’s. Hehehe I’m really gonna miss you guys (lalong lalo na si....guess who) hahaha!

CC: David, Bridge, Rhoda, Melo, Abet, Ona, Bong, Bendell, Toni, Patrick, Henry, Otap, Fudge, Tita Lens, Kuya Manny, Girlie, Elmer

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