Monday, June 16, 2008
Last Thursday, my friend, who is going to be my boss in the company that i applied for texted me and said that my papers are now ready and i'm all set to report 2 weeks from now. So i already drafted my resignation letter (in my previous post) and rendered it to my creative director the day after (Friday), thinking that it was strategic and their would be less complications. But I was wrong... As I expected, he called me up in his room and discussed the matter with me. You guys don't know how nervous i am at that time. Kung bakit pa kasi kailangan ipaliwanag ang lahat lahat. Hindi ba pwedeng sabihing, 'eh ganun e', wala ng salisalita, wala ng tanung tanung.
Before, i said to my self that i wouldn't make salary as an issue. Dati kasi ok lang kasi sakin yun, basta kung san ako masaya, dun ako kahit mababa ang sweldo dun ako. Sabi ko noon, magreresign lang ako kapag may nakaaway ako sa office na hindi ko na matake o kaya hindi nako masaya sa ginagawa ko. Pero as time goes by, naisip ko, salary also does matter. Hello I'm already 24 and I'm not getting younger. Dyan na pumapasok yung mga household responsibilities tulad ng pagbabayad ng kuryente etal. Yung sweldo ko hanggang pangfreshgrad lang noh. And in the 2 years that I've been to this company, di naman uso ang yearly increase, moreover the benefits. So i said to my self its about time to be in better pastures.
But no, bigla nalang ako naguluhan at napaisip when my created director started to do the talking. He discussed how impressed he was with our team. He told me his plans that I'm a possible candidate for a noteworthy position. I already told him my feelings about it na impossible yun dahil di naman uso sa company ang promotion and all. he only uttered 'Why don't you let me do my job.' Hay i know that he doesn't want to give me high hope pero napaisip nga ako, posible nga naman kung iisipin. Pero the problem is, di pa sigurado yun. May risk din. In my opinion, at the most, a very influencive recommendation letter is all he could give.
Right now I'm so confused. Should i take the risk or dun ako sa sigurado? Ang hirap hirap lang talaga. What would i do?
Sa totoo lang, nahihiya ako sa friend ko na naglakad ng papers ko and all. She was able to grant my expected salary or nagiging masyado lang akong mukhang pera ngayon at pumapasok sa utak kong magtake ng risk? On the other hand, i must admit, i love my work right now if only for the poor compensation.
Ngayon i really cant decide, what would i do ?
5:21 PM
